|Before kids...just the two of us|
I spent the early evening into the early morning of Valentine's night cuddling with a sweet guy who has my heart! This little guy is NOT my husband. He is just a bit over 2 feet tall, with just enough hair to cover his sweet head, with beautiful big brown eyes and a cry that melts my heart. This little guy is my 4 1/2 month old son, Asher. I have said and continue to say: what a blessing it is to have a little boy love his momma so much that he can only sleep if I'm right beside him with my arms wrapped around him and his hand clenched to my shirt so tight as if he's telling me that I'm the most important person in his world :) Asher is a mommy's boy! At night he will not sleep unless I'm right beside him. And although I view this as a blessing, I've had almost 5 months of not "real sleep", absolutely no "me" time, and definitely no time for my hubby (keep in mind, this is HIS baby as well!) Being a mommy is a sacrifice. A sacrifice that I would not trade for the world. However, other things on my priority list are tending not to happen. I repeat, I spent Valentine's night cuddling with Asher and not my husband lol! So, as I woke up this morning from cuddling with Asher, I woke up feeling like I was a good mother but at the same time, I also woke up feeling like I may not have been being a good wife. Where is the balance in all of this? My next few posts will feature how I am going to attempt to make some changes so that I can be a GREAT wife, Great mother, and everything else in between :) I'm going to MAKE IT HAPPEN!
|After Kids...definitely more blessed, but the bed is definitely more full :)|